Decisions decisions....

Your decisions are the few things you actually have any real control over. Make decisions that fulfill YOU and serve whatever wants and needs YOU have. Yes, we all have people that we are afraid to lose, afraid to disappoint, afraid to be entirely truthful with out of fear of pushing them away. But when we decide to live life for someone else's happiness, we aren't doing ANYONE any favors.

Its simple (and hard at the same time) know what you want, know what makes the most emotional impact for you, know what your dream/goal/desire is, know which direction you prefer to see your life head in and then DECIDE to do whatever it takes to make it happen.

Nothing works unless you do.

The hell did 2012 go??!

*flips through my calendar*

Jesus, it's almost July. This year is going by so fast, i don't even know what to say about it. Smh.

I like to rehash my entire year at the very end, right before the New Year to put things in order, reflect, gain perspective and think about my hopes for the incoming year. Before I get there, though, I like to do  a mid-year review. Check in with myself to see how the current year has served me thus far. A report card of sorts.

2012 hasn't royally disappointed. Let's see. I successfully knocked out my 1st year of grad school. Which is kind of a miracle in itself because i'm SO over school. The fact that I managed to pull all A's and B's this year isn't to be taken lightly becuz I truly stopped giving much of a shit about school by November of last yr. *shrug*

Also, I moved into my own little spot. Nothing fancy but guess what??? IT'S MINE. Me, myself and I. I'm enjoying it immensely.

Hmm...what else....things are still sorting themselves out on the personal front. It's better today than what it was this same time last year so....

Right now i'm going to give 2012 a solid B. Not too shabby. Not too shabby at all.

Perpetual confusion will kill you

You can't move forward when there's so much unnecessary shit in your way.

Sometimes once you've damaged something, it's not worth the pain, struggle and effort to keep trying to put it back together again.

One day, couples will stop saying the words, "We are never EVER gonna break up!" Save yourself from looking retarded and foolish when you do.

I'm something like a poet. Something like a fiction writer (albeit a bit unproductive). And something like a soul singer (adjusts my slightly wilted white gardenia behind my ear). Oh ye of many creative hats :) Over the past yr and a half, I have performed with my group, Griot Noir, and solo quite a few times. Especially over the last 4-6 months , I've been so blessed with opportunities to read, sing and perform at various venues. I truly love being so submerged in my craft.

But i'm tired as shit!!

Too much of a good thing...ya know? I think it's time to sit back for a minute and just soak some stuff in as an audience member. I feel a bit tapped out. I'm ready to just concentrate on my writing on the page and not have the added pressure of performance. Don't get me wrong. I love the stage and the adrenaline rush from appreciative audiences. For right now, I just wanna put pen to paper and create some magic in between the lines.